patience is a virtue

so i decided to make this blog in order to be more personal.
well, i graduated in june and transitioning from being independent and on my own (since i was 14) to living back at home has been TOUGH to say the least.
i've been applying to jobs like crazy, but i've come to find that they're either
1) not hiring
2) i dont have enough experience
3) they don't look at my resume because i don't live in that area (even though i specifically say that i will relocate and fly out for an interview on my own dime)
4) or after getting a call from HR, i can't get in touch with them (my calls go directly to voicemail, they dont answer email) seriously. frustrating.

and even if i look for internships they're all
1) unpaid (which my parents will not let me do since i've already done that before and it really is a financial burden)
2) not taking college graduates. gah!!!

while i've been enjoying funemployment as much as i can (not having to wake up or be stressed about a job) i really want a "big girl" job, make money and move! the only thing is that my parents will not let me move on my own unless i have a job. *SIGH*

all the while i feel like i'm "Stuck". i feel like people are judging me because i don't have a job and am living at home, and it's even a burden in my relationship - (i am in a long distance relationship). i live in a very rural area so there aren't many opportunities for me here... i am looking for a big corporate job. i would even consider going back to retail, but the most decent mall near me is 2 hours away! and when it comes to retail i will call and they say i have to go in the store to apply... it is such a hassle! i feel like everyone else has been able to get jobs since they live in a city, or all my friends are getting engaged. its been hard...

i've been praying and being patient... but i am just the most UNpatient person and i just need a change!!! sigh. i'm really sick of being trapped under the rubble of the collapsed economy. and now, with a new graduating class coming in, i'm even MORE worried that i won't find a job with more competition!

has anyone else been in this situation?